Well... you would know.

It’s like I’m in a realm where everything was happy. I didn’t have to worry about anything. Responsibilities were gone. Commitments didn’t matter. Nothing mattered. Except for the right now. Right at this moment was am I going to do to stay in this realm of happiness. Tomorrow didn’t matter. The people outside didn’t matter. That was the easy part. The hard part is facing the responsibilities then getting back in because you’ve locked yourself away for so long and suddenly you’ve let yourself loose. Just get back in.

there’s a difference between making a comparison and making a comparison. 

it’s one thing to say “oh he/she has all these things that i don’t have. my life sucks, how come i can’t have all that” 

and it’s another thing to say “oh he/she has all these things. that would be my goal.”

but: 

it’s one thing to say “that’s my goal.” 

and another thing to say “that’s my goal. i’m not reaching it. my life sucks.”

there’s really only 7 years of teenager-ness .

7 intense years of change from being a carefree “what am i going to get for next year’s birthday present” to “what am i going to do to impress my boss so i can get a raise/promotion”. thoughts change from “what am i going to do for myself” to “what am i going to do for someone else so they know me” 

we’ve lived 12 years of childhood before it (2x), and we’re going to live at least 50 years of real life after it (7x). 

unquestionably, the 7 years is LIFECHANGING. 

people can’t handle the pain, the stress, and all the responsibilities. 

but those who can say it was the best years of their life. the years that has helped define them.

so for now all i can say is: focus on the big picture. stop thinking about right now. think about what you’re going to out of this. 

not a laughing matter. 

“Suicide is the third-leading cause of death for 15- to 24-year-olds”

once adolescence hits, everything is just so much more complicated, and people just put unnecessary stress on themselves because there’s responsibility now. 

just stop thinking it’s your fault. stop thinking at all. and observe. 

living as a 5 year old is just so much easier cause all there is to worry about is just what am i going to tell my parents to get for my next birthday. 

“You don’t get marks deducted, you earn marks. Your marks don’t start at 100, they start at 0, and for each assignment you do, you get marks.”

knowing that they judge me back. 

and i guess i don’t give a crap about it, because everyone needs that upperhand feeling where they feel they’re superior. 

so. i judge people. 

what .